Live to learn. Learn to live.

Weird title? I know. If you CrossFit with me, you know exactly what I am talking about. I don't like working out with my shirt on, but for different reasons than you may think. I've shared more than once that I had an eating disorder for a decent portion of my life. Gradually I am beginning to realize that eating disorders may be more of an epidemic than obesity. Don't quote me on that - I only speak from experience. I have more friends, male and female, than I would like to admit that can relate to my issues or greater. It lights a fire in my soul and infuriates me. I hate hate hate that people are living with hating themselves every day and feel that it is just something they have to live with. It's not. And you shouldn't. I remember the day I graduated High School I was ecstatic because I suddenly felt this weight lifted off my shoulders. I no longer had to uphold the image that I had presented to my small group of peers for four years. While many of my frien

How do you say goodbye? Seriously. I'm leaving for medical school in 6 weeks, so this thought has been frequenting my mind.  In general, I comfort myself with the fact that I will be coming back to Colorado on my breaks. I will see many of the people I say goodbye to again. This kind of goodbye is not fun, but it doesn't scare me as much as the real kind of goodbye. The goodbye where you say it with meaning: you are, for better or worse, parting ways with this person, being, or thing, and you will never see them again - and you are accepting that. Really saying goodbye and meaning it is often hard to produce. At least, for me it is. I tend to hang on to things an inappropriate amount of time. Not just goodbyes, but fights, feelings, songs - a lot of different things, and I'm not sure why. I've never felt like I am scared of change, but maybe I am? It seems like a natural human tendency. Once you let go of one thing that you finally understand and know, you must mov