Finding perspective

You know what sucks? Breaking up sucks. It's a well known fact. It makes me want to swear off men and become neutral (not gay, not lesbian, not straight). Yes, neutral. So then why do I do it over and over again anyways? Why do we all do it over and over and over again, even though when it ends it sucks the life out of you? Oh right, because of the high that comes from falling for someone. The comfort you find in being held. The joy you feel from having a best friend who wants to be with you, and only you. That's why we do it. And we hope that someday one relationship will last forever. I am reminding myself of this right now, because it would be easy to be neutral. But how joyous would it be? To miss the highs in order to avoid the lows. It would be a very boring and neutral life. No one wants that, so we keep hoping and trying, and one day maybe it will work out. Maybe it wont, but at least we got to experience what it feels like to feel for another. And feeling, whether it ...